Thread:Shifūha/@comment-2089817-20140923201405/@comment-7040990-20140923202840

I will be honest with you, and that is that I don't know what is going on either. What I only did, was telling my side of the story to Ten and what I understood from my positions. Other than that, I've truly no clue what is being told and said.

This is what I sent to Ten just now:

First and foremost, I want to apologise for behaving like a child. I was spilling out the words that weren't coming from my mind, but rather that of my emotion and heart. I'm not you, I am very sensitive, especially during a vulnerable moments, and may it be or not, I'm not a man. I will bawl if I have to, in front of others or alone. Though, I've calmed a lot more done than before Another, I do want to apologise for taking out on you. I still care about you, no matter what, and that isn't going to change. Though, I feel as if it is damaged through past events and the current. As for Sei, I didn't judge biased. In the discussion blog, I told Sei about the applications and potential items that may be banned. However, unbeknownst to me, albeit one may have said that I 'agreed' to it, they opened the applications without any order of what can be applied for and what can't. What I had expected was a final discussion with the operators of main items that should be taken out of the application process. It didn't. Everyone is to blame, including myself. Sure, I did talk with the operators in private about certain things, including apps. But, to my understanding, I had want to word it to public too. As for operators, I didn't just choose them, I recommended them and asked the community, those that participate, to decide whether to keep them as they are or change. Did anyone offer a suggestion? No. How can I change something then? As well, the idea was to have an open first arc, followed by arcs that could be prepared by the operators. This was to keep the story flowing, instead of keeping it in one place all the time. This is how the former died out, because there was no progress. About the admin positions, they aren't political. It was meant to give each admin a function, to at least perform duties to establish a better environment for everyone. There is no power-play in this, literally. Every admin may help out the other, and the main focus is for the userbase. At least, that is my intended goal. As for my position, I've taken guardian to be the center of the administration team. Yes, I should definitely reword the Guardian, because the function of it, is already in the name. I'm the guardian of the NF, of the userbase and that of the administration team. I listen to the people and administrators. I would make sure that both are in balance, that there is no power play in between them. My words may have come out harsh, but I couldn't come over weak either. I've been at my faults and I wish to repent them with this new generation. You know how I feel about the site, the userbase and that whatever happens, I will still be there to help it out

-- This is what I wrote to Ten. You can ask it him yourself.