User blog comment:Prodigy X/Announcement and Concerns/@comment-26064215-20140523012656

Prodigy, while I haven't spoken to you since my days as JJRawesome, I remember that you were always a kind and patient individual. This phase you are going through is a result of your grandmother's death - it's the fourth stage of grief out of the five. You have been confronted with loss, and you went through the first three stages relatively quickly - you denied it, became angry, and bargained with a higher power, I'm willing to guess. Something has gotten you stuck in the fourth stage of grief - depression. It's a normal reaction and you *WILL* get through it.

About the not having many friends thing, I feel that this darkness is something you created. Unless you stomp around insulting and yelling at people, nobody has any reason to hate you. Even if you are completely silent and don't talk to people, nobody will scowl or hate on you - they'll just ignore you, assuming you want to be ignored. Believe it or not, I went through a similar phase where I felt everyone hated me. It lasted from sixth grade up until about a month ago - two and a half years. I realized that nobody hated me - I was just creating darkness where there was none. Once I removed this darkness, I saw that people were generally plain neutral or actually nice to me. All you need to do is see the world for how it really is, and maybe this darkness will vanish.

TL;DR -- The depression is normal and the darkness may be your own creation. Try looking at the world *realistically*, and see what you may see.