Thread:Shen Yi/@comment-18812574-20150626201341

Well Con, I was going to say all this in chat so I’ll just say it here. I wanted to apologize for what happened a few days ago. I’ve laid into you before, and I know I’ve stated (perhaps too frequently?) the reasons for why I get so pissed off at you at times. Here’s the thing though, it was just as much my fault for being so abrasive. I didn’t realize how much what I had said affected you, nor did I realize that it would cause so many problems between you and Kay and/or Serk. I never intended to make you hate me. I’m sorry. I can be so calloused to my own words at times, I don’t take time to think about what I’m saying, or don’t realize how what I say or the way I say it can hurt others. When we first met I really did admire you, because I thought I had found someone who shared many of my same views and interests. You know what? That’s probably still the case, but I just let my beef with you get in the way of seeing that. You’re a fellow archer, a cool (if at times annoying, XD) guy, and you do put a ton of effort into your articles. Long articles aren’t my style, at least here on NF, and I was just trying to poke fun at you, not have it turn into some nasty argument. I probably wounded your pride. I’m sorry. I was hoping that those times I did dig into you wouldn’t affect our relationship in the long run, and that was blind on my part. I’m sorry. At first I hoped we could once again reach some form of equality, but now I’ve realized that I’ve probably gone too far and that will never be the case. But I just hope we can come to some form of reconciliation. I’m sorry. I’ve been trying my hardest since our most recent argument to keep things at a civil level and avoid saying anything that might piss you off or offend you in any way. But it feels like I’m now operating under six feet of ice. I’ll be completely frank here, I was asked today that I no longer say anything at all to you, and that is what prompted this whole thing. I still value your opinions (well, some hah). I do appreciate how much work you’ve put in here on NF. Most of all, I am concerned that we keep an open exchange of ideas. I don’t want to be anyone’s enemy, and I want to make amends, if amends are possible. I know we may have never been friends, but we were at least once friendly, and I feel as though I’ve lost something important here. Maybe it’s that I lost my respect of you, and perhaps I was frustrated and blamed you for it. I took it out on you when you never changed, and that was wrong. And I’m sorry. So even though I don’t always and probably never will agree with you entirely, I’m going to try and set that aside and quit letting it get under my skin, and quit bugging you about it. I mean we all have our faults, but right now I am tired of the hostilities. I just want to see the best in you. And I hope you can find it in you to forgive me. 